Cursed be the one who plucked this rock
of captured sun and moon
from the river’s silt, and called it
good and worthy of pursuit.
Cursed be the demon jester
that blinded me and spun me round
until I believed it.
Given over to my desire,
abandoned by all who cared for me,
I dove deep, and dug deeper still,
until I gained all I desired,
then stole from other men.
In this hell-hallowed hovel,
now covered in ice and snow,
surrounded by dulled senses
and barren woods,
my status symbols decayed and decrepit,
daily mocking my misspent youth,
the wind howls outside and
echoes the cries of my soul’s solitude.
The hearth is lit, but the logs are thin.
And all around, the hissing of white snowfall
heralds the cold blackness of the grave.
Before I die,
I sit before the meager fire,
and take the dregs of my life,
and the ashes of future dreams,
and polish away
the dust on the gold.